If you care about Reality and how it unfolds, surrender and intend to let Steerage work through you instead. It’s going to be better for everyone – including yourself.
It takes humility to admit that you don’t know what’s best and how to be good. That you’re not a good host to this body. That in fact you’re being an obstacle and impeding the process.
It takes courage to face the recognition that the best thing you can do is “die”. (Psychically – never harm your body.)
Accept it. Nothing to be negative about. Perceiving this as “sad” or “degrading” is just the ego’s reaction, which you can cry out and let go of.
Through surrender, you are redeemed.