What if you gave up control and let your Self move through life? That’d be the only way to see how Self actually looks. You can’t predict it beforehand, since it’s mysterious in its nature and silent.
Aren’t you curious about the truth of your character and motivation? Wouldn’t it be interesting to learn who You really are? What You genuinely want to do?
There’s what you think you want or should be. And then there’s what You actually Are.
You can be intrigued by Yourself. Have an attitude of not knowing who You are, and want to discover it. It’s true that you don’t know who You are anyway. So let Yourself do things and satisfy your curiosity.