When you stay in surrender, you’re continually dying. Embrace this process. Let it happen.
The death of you is not binary. It’s gradual. There’s always more death to be “had”.
Even if it’s excruciating sometimes, continue being surrendered. Don’t come back from the dead. We have enough of the undead around already. ;)
In death, You are Alive. Following Steerage is following Life itself.